I have a Confession to make... Umm, It's hard to say but I 'll try to say it anyway!
Well, Since an early age - 3rd preparatory exactly -, I've been asked about the man of my dreams, What are his criteria? How do you imagine him? and so on...
When I faced those question, I looked away and laughed without speaking a word... For 2 reasons:
1) I didn't actually know an answer to that!
2) I didn't care about that anyway!
As days go, I met a lot of people, Some good and some bad... and Some others were extremely great! Those shaped my standards I want in my man... but that was challenging, as the set standards were very high that they seemed impossible to reach!
I was having a conversation about that with one of friends once and he said:
"By this way, you'll NEVER find that person! because, simply NOBODY is Perfect... Yes, you look for the good characteristics but that's not the clue! The key point is accepting this person's points of weaknesses as well... It's more about which weaknesses you can handle and what's not"
Actually, that redefined my standards and gave me a new perspective... And days go on...
And for the 1st time, I
"think" I found
"Mr Right"... I found him but he didn't find me! Sometimes, I think that guys is
"To good to be true"! and that's why it's IMPOSSIBLE that he'll find me as I see myself not good enough for him or to deserve such person...
I Never felt such feelings for anybody before! the feeling of
"The FIRST... The ONE & ONLY"! and believe it or not, it's killing me as I can't let it go!
Well, Nothing to do or to say anymore but I'll doing my best to be a better person for the Sake of ALLAH SWT and his satisfaction as he knows what's best for me...
I'll just end up by something I read and it was very touchy...
"عندما تحب شخصا فلا تهديه أغاني حب و كلمات غزل و لا ورود حمراء و لا ترسم له قلب و بين طرفيه اسمه و اسمك... و لكن ارفع يديك إلى السماء في منتصف الليل و قل...
ربي، إنّي قد أحببت عبدا من عبادك، فيسّر له طاعتك و اعصمه عن معصيتك و أسكنه فسيح جناته و أبعده عن النار و ارزقه الخير كله و اغفر له ما تقدّم من ذنبه و ما تأخّر، إنّك أنت الغفرو الرحيم"
I Pray with that every night :)
فاللهم استجب، اللهم آمين