Sitting with myself on the bed... small light... looking to the wide sky at night through my open window... Oh GOD! I feel so exhausted! not physically, it's an internal one! am EMOTIONALLY and MENTALLY exhausted... I feel so weak! I just lay down with no power to do anything... with not a single motive to get out of my room or even of my bed! just wanna be with myself... No communication with anybody but ME...
Well, I think I'll never understand... it's just too complicated!!
Some people claim they do understand human nature but I guess they are wrong... You ask me, WHY? because of 2 simple reasons.... first, you don't see all sides... it's just too complicated and exhausting for your mind to think about and understand!
second, everyone of us has a side... a HIDDEN one... that nobody sees, or may be no one will ever see!! even the people who seem so easy to know and understand...
It keeps me thinking a lot about if I ever knew the persons I know!! Do I really know who they are?! Did I really go deep in them that I could say "Oh yeah, I know that one" ?! Sometimes, the answer is just CHOCKING !! NO, I don't!!!.... And I laugh a lot at myself when I find out that some of the very close people I claim to know very well, I don't even know their favorite color or their favorite food!!! two of the simplest and most general things!!
Isn't that ironic?!!! and to be honest, sometimes I see it pathetic and I feel so much pity for myself!
Such a hard feeling....
True and trustworthy friends are not such easy to find!! to have a complete 100% trust in somebody, You go through HELL!!!... You go through ups and downs! You spend so much effort and emotions! You get hurt, you feel extreme pain! You get lost, you loose balance and feel so much confusion!!
Only then, You know who's your true friend and who will stand up for you and be there by your side till forever
Oh GOD! it hurts ... it really hurts!! How was I that blind to see and realize this?!!
Now, all I just want to do is to lay down doing absolutely NOTHING... just staying alone... In Silence.... nobody around... I wanna escape from people !!!!
Traveling away and stay on the beach....
Just watching the sunset and enjoying the water view....
Enjoying the wind blowing against my cheek.... going smoothly around me.... playing gently around my face....
Just being there with a nice story and some light music...
Closed my eyes and set my imagination free....
because right now .... THAT'S ALL I NEED
Well, I think I'll never understand... it's just too complicated!!
Some people claim they do understand human nature but I guess they are wrong... You ask me, WHY? because of 2 simple reasons.... first, you don't see all sides... it's just too complicated and exhausting for your mind to think about and understand!
second, everyone of us has a side... a HIDDEN one... that nobody sees, or may be no one will ever see!! even the people who seem so easy to know and understand...
It keeps me thinking a lot about if I ever knew the persons I know!! Do I really know who they are?! Did I really go deep in them that I could say "Oh yeah, I know that one" ?! Sometimes, the answer is just CHOCKING !! NO, I don't!!!.... And I laugh a lot at myself when I find out that some of the very close people I claim to know very well, I don't even know their favorite color or their favorite food!!! two of the simplest and most general things!!
Isn't that ironic?!!! and to be honest, sometimes I see it pathetic and I feel so much pity for myself!
Such a hard feeling....
True and trustworthy friends are not such easy to find!! to have a complete 100% trust in somebody, You go through HELL!!!... You go through ups and downs! You spend so much effort and emotions! You get hurt, you feel extreme pain! You get lost, you loose balance and feel so much confusion!!
Only then, You know who's your true friend and who will stand up for you and be there by your side till forever
Oh GOD! it hurts ... it really hurts!! How was I that blind to see and realize this?!!
Now, all I just want to do is to lay down doing absolutely NOTHING... just staying alone... In Silence.... nobody around... I wanna escape from people !!!!
Traveling away and stay on the beach....
Just watching the sunset and enjoying the water view....
Enjoying the wind blowing against my cheek.... going smoothly around me.... playing gently around my face....
Just being there with a nice story and some light music...
Closed my eyes and set my imagination free....
because right now .... THAT'S ALL I NEED
here's my analysis to the situation as i go through the same
ReplyDeleteas we go with our lives, we got hurt somehow, we get wounded but not physically, rather mentally, in our souls, some pieces of us just gets broken
doesn't matter what's the reason now, but rather what's the solution, we go on thinking about the reasons forgetting about solutions, so the fixing just takes time, as time is healer that will never abandon you, but ofcourse this will take time
another solution can be a dear person, so close to us who can just wipe away our pain, fix our broken pieces
if you have such person, go for her/him and let'm fix you
finally i hope you get better soon :)