Heart or Mind?!

I dunno !

A conflict between the heart and mind ! that eternal conflict that keeps you awake for days thinking!

Thinking which way to go! Thinking What you should do or how to react! Thinking what is right and what is wrong!

I know that I should do as they say "Think with my heart and feel with my mind" ... but it becomes difficult when you face something that hurt you so much before and just find it repeating itself!

You just get stuck in the corner! You feel your mind is about to explode! A mind revolution happens! Should I go for it or just stay in my place keeping it inside and that's it?

I want it but I'm afraid of it! I need it but I don't want to get near it!

How I wish to take that step and do it again hoping and praying it'll go well this time but... NOTHING IS GUARANTEED !

All nights before I go to sleep, I look to the wide sky and the shiny stars and wonder... Thinking... will it be as I wish? will I ever get it if I tried again?

Looking to the sky... deeply... like looking inside yourself... it's dark! can't see where you are heading! Every single memory just comes rushing into your memory! reminding you of things you actually made a huge effort to forget! find your tears flowing on your face! can't Stop them! The truth is... It's not your eyes which cry but your heart!

A confusion badly takes place... feeling of complete lost! To whom Should I listen?! HEART OR MIND?!

HEART OR MIND?!

HEART OR MIND?!

Does anybody has an answer for that? because actually now, I DON'T!