(52): قواعد العشق الأربعون

قد يبدو غريباً، ولكن لا أعرف لماذا أشعر أن الله ألهمني قراءة هذا الكتاب في هذا الوقت بالذات على الرغم من وجوده على مكتبي منذ ما يقرب من عام.. بدأته ولم أقوى على الانتهاء منه، فتركته وتركت تلك العلامة في وسط الكتاب...

بدأته من البداية كأن لم اقرأ فيه من قبل...

لا أعلم، ولكنه شعور يزداد قوة مع كل صفحة وكل كلمة وكل فكرة...

ربُما لأني أشعر بفراغ داخلي قاتل... هوة سحيقة تبتلع كل ما أفعل، فلا يبقى له أثراً..

قلباً جافاً خاوياً من كل روح...

لعلّه الرسالة... لعلّه الدواء من الداء..

#RandomThought

(51): We..

Sometimes I just look at one my old messages with someone who used to be dear and I think how much I miss that person, how we have been and how we are now... And I just smile..

I wish sometimes that time goes back and have that kind of relationship we had, may be work more on making it better... More honesty, more compassion, more closeness...

But I realize the next moment that time passes; people change and so do our relationships. No matter how hard you tried, some of them was never meant to go further. And if we tried to get it back, we'll destroy those beautiful memories we have.

Yes, beautiful! May be back then they were painful and may still cause some ache, but they are still beautiful. Because they became part of who we are, and each one of us is beautiful in his own way.

Some people are meant to stay and others are meant to leave. It's a part of our growth.

For those people we lost, for the those people we couldn't go further in our relationships, for those people I wish they knew what is in my heart but they didn't; may you find happiness wherever and whenever you are. :)

(50): I just wished

You've always been "someone" for me, and I always invited you to come to share some important moments in my life and others I asked you to be there because I needed you to be there, but You were never there.

You Never obeyed my invitation, Not even once in years.

I don't know why, and probably won't ever know; but I really wished that you made me feel a priority one day, scarified one of those many things you had just to answer my call just for once like I always answered yours. I always came second to you.

I just wished to be a priority only once, is it too much to ask? :)

(49): To all the heroes out there.

Everyone is a Hero in his own way. The hero of his own story.

Fighting battles we know nothing about, succeeded in some and failed in others. But he's here standing in front of you working, talking, dealing with people, smiling; he survived yesterday, surviving today and hopes to survive tomorrow.

Sometimes, all what is required to achieve is to survive the battles; & Only "courageous" men and women do that.

I meet heroes everyday; some of them tell the story, others don't. But that's the beauty of it; differences empower.

To all the heroes out there, I appreciate your presence and you have all my respect.

I just wanted you to know that. :)

(49): Confession: A Thank You!

I admit, I owe you so much. Although The story hurt, but I do owe you.

You don't know that because I didn't dare to tell you one day.

But the truth is, you taught me so much.

You taught me so much about life, about people and most of all about myself; that hidden part I never dared to come close to. and for that I owe you a lot.

I don't exactly know how our story began, but It didn't have a happy ending; or how do we know? May be this is our happy ending! After all, our minor minds don't get the Full wisdom of Allah.

What I've learned is this, Our story events aren't what defines who we are. It's how we choose to act; It's Who we choose to be. And How ever we acted, right or wrong, we learned; and it helped shaping who we are now!

That what brings inner peace. :)

I won't cry because it ended, but I'll smile because it happened and because every ending is in fact a new beginning; and I like the new us.

Thank you! :)

(48): One Unit

Us, other people and the Universe; We are all interconnected...

Like hoops of a chain, dependable and inseparable...

Random Thought (47): I need

They were having one of their usual insightful conversations.

He ended his lines saying "We all need a lot of things".

"That's true. so, what do you need?" She asked.

He stood silent for a moment and turned to her and said "I need to find ME. I need to find myself; who I am I? what do I do? How to do it? What's my passion? what's my path? what should I really leave here before I leave this earth? I need to define ME."

"What about You? what do you need?" He asked back.

That was a tough question for her. She drifted away with her thoughts for a while and.. "A Company", She answered. " I just need a good company."

Random Thought (46): It says it all.

For a very longtime, I've been wondering why I always prefer silence in your presence while I talk a lot to other people? And after a while, I realized that... 

I just love listening to you.

I love to watch you expressing your mind and heart. It makes me see through you, go beyond what other people normally see and feel what you can't express in words. I understand every word, every thought, every feeling. It makes me know the real You.

You just don't need to pretend to be anyone but yourself while being with me... You don't need to explain while talking with me...

Our silence talks and says it all.

Random Thought (45): Silence Talks

Silence talks. It always has something to say.

There is no silent silence.

Silence has a higher level of expression than any spoken words can illustrate; it's the higher language, it's the universal language.

It's the language of the heart, it's the language of the eyes, it's the language of the soul.

It's how the universe talks to you; it invites you to listen, it never asks you to speak.

It's how it shows you its wonders, it's how it brings you inner peace.

You listen to every little detail, you don't just hear.

You listen to the inner voice buried all the times under the noise and turbulence of the life.

You just go with its creatures in harmony; heading to the One and Only, the Creator of the ultimate inner peace, the creator of the ultimate beauty, the Creator of the ultimate happiness and satisfaction.

It's the simplest of all theories.

It makes all the sense. 

We are part of that universe, so why would we want to go swim against it while everything is heading towards him? Why we do that and then wonder why we are feeling disturbed and unbalanced? Why do we complain about suffering and all it takes is just to listen?

Listen with your ears, Listen with your eyes, Listen with your senses, Listen with your heart..

Just Listen with all of You.

Just Listen and speak the golden language. 

Random Thought (44): 2015

ها نحن على أعتاب سنة جديدة، مودّعين سنة مضت بكل ما فيها.. بكل لحظاتها وأحداثها الحلوة والمرّة.. السعيدة والحزينة.. تمر الأحداث والأيام والمواقف والشخصيات وتفنى، وما يبقى منها إلا ذكرى تختلج لها نفوسنا بين الحين والآخر.. فتسيل بعض الدموع فرحاً والبعض الآخر يسيل حُزناً ووجعاً..

لا أعلم أي نوعٍ من أنواع الدموع انتصر في هذا العام الفائت!

أدموع الفرحة أم دموع الحيرة؟! لكن من المؤكد أنَّ النوعين موجودان.

أصبح من العبث القول بأن هذة السنة أو غيرها من السنوات الفارقة في الحياة، لأن ببساطة كل السنوات فارقة. لكل سنة سِمة.. لكل سنة، درس تتعلّمه قلباً وقالباً.. درساً لا تعد بعده أبداً كما كنت. أبداً!

ودرس هذة السنة الفائتة كان درساً مُتميّزاً؛ كان لدور البطولة في تدريسه العديد من الشخصيات.

كان مُعلّماً واحداً في البداية لكن كل مدى يدخل شخصٍ ما في هذا الدور، وأتعجّب! ولكن عند التوقّف والتفكير مليّاً، أُدرِك أنّ لابد من ذلك وإلا ما اتسعت الرؤية ووضحت الصورة و اكتمل الدرس.

ولكن يبقى هذا المُعلِّم الأبرز على الإطلاق.

ذلك المُعلّم الذي غاص في الأعماق، فأتى بغور الروح والعقل والقلب. كشف عن مدى جهلى وقلّة خبرتي وإن ادعيتُ العلم. أراني أنّ مازال في الحياة الكثير للتعلّمه، أن لا يزال أمامك فراسخ من التجارب التي يجب أن أخوضها حتى تكتمل جوانب كياني. أراني الإنسان كما لم استوعبه من قبل، وعلّمنّي تقبّله على الرغم من صعوبة ذلك.

علّمنّي -سواء شئت أم أبيت الاعتراف- أن أُقَدِّر نفسي، ألا أهملها ولا أحمّلها ما لا تطيق. علّمني وضع الأشخاص -والأمور عامةً- في نصابها الصحيح.

شئت أم أبيت أيضاً، علّمنّي هؤلاء وذلك المعلّم كيف أحب ولماذا أحب والأهم مَن أحب.

استوعبت نفسي؛ بفضائلها وأخطائها.. بقوتها وضعفها.. برزانتها وجنونها.. بتخطيطها وعفويتها.. بإصرارها وحيرتها.. بسعادتها ووجعها.. استوعبتها!

مازلت أتعلّم حُسن التصرّف.. أخطأت كثيراً وأصبت أحياناً.. ولكن، ها أنا ذا أتعلّم.

ذلك المعلّم -على الرغم من قسوة الدرس-، أدين له بالكثير.

فلتجد السعادة أينما حللتَ يا مُعلمي.