(52): قواعد العشق الأربعون

قد يبدو غريباً، ولكن لا أعرف لماذا أشعر أن الله ألهمني قراءة هذا الكتاب في هذا الوقت بالذات على الرغم من وجوده على مكتبي منذ ما يقرب من عام.. بدأته ولم أقوى على الانتهاء منه، فتركته وتركت تلك العلامة في وسط الكتاب...

بدأته من البداية كأن لم اقرأ فيه من قبل...

لا أعلم، ولكنه شعور يزداد قوة مع كل صفحة وكل كلمة وكل فكرة...

ربُما لأني أشعر بفراغ داخلي قاتل... هوة سحيقة تبتلع كل ما أفعل، فلا يبقى له أثراً..

قلباً جافاً خاوياً من كل روح...

لعلّه الرسالة... لعلّه الدواء من الداء..

#RandomThought

(51): We..

Sometimes I just look at one my old messages with someone who used to be dear and I think how much I miss that person, how we have been and how we are now... And I just smile..

I wish sometimes that time goes back and have that kind of relationship we had, may be work more on making it better... More honesty, more compassion, more closeness...

But I realize the next moment that time passes; people change and so do our relationships. No matter how hard you tried, some of them was never meant to go further. And if we tried to get it back, we'll destroy those beautiful memories we have.

Yes, beautiful! May be back then they were painful and may still cause some ache, but they are still beautiful. Because they became part of who we are, and each one of us is beautiful in his own way.

Some people are meant to stay and others are meant to leave. It's a part of our growth.

For those people we lost, for the those people we couldn't go further in our relationships, for those people I wish they knew what is in my heart but they didn't; may you find happiness wherever and whenever you are. :)